Today I finally feel something different. Proud! Clear! Fulfilled! Attentive! I could let out a sigh of relief and fall backwards in peace.
For the past couple of weeks my brain had been feeling inactive. I've sat inside a bell jar, watching the water from the sink faucet wash away the beans from my dishes, but nothing beyond that. Watching city drivers no longer afraid to die spread irritation to others, but nothing beyond that. Watching the grass wave as I stretch before a run, but nothing beyond that. Mental inactivity tried to subdue me, but I could never let it.
Today, the sights and feelings are vivid. Long runs have turned into a quest to find the present.